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November 02, 2005
How it Goes with Us
Well, Halloween was a bust. It rained, and we had all of one visitor. I did swing by Barnes and Noble yesterday, though, and scored some half price truffles, as well as a pumpkin spice latte.
My mental state is still a bit up and down. I'm not as anxious and angry as I was a couple of weeks ago, but I'm still pretty blue. I feel like I'm constantly moving through a sort of syrupy fog. It takes me a long time to do anything and I'm still prone to bouts of frustrated crying. I was feeling better over the weekend, leading me to think "gee, maybe I wasn't depressed after all," but they tell me it's probably the Zoloft kicking in and the worst thing I can do is stop taking it.
We're working on finding babysitters, though I still don't know if I can trust a stranger with the Bug. We'll have to see. Anxiety over something happening to her is part of this whole thing, but at the same time, a break would be good for my mental health. We're still dealing with sleep issues (and probably will be forever, pretty much). I think the time change kind of messed everyone up, though it does seem that some sort of pattern is emerging.
The good news is that our holiday plans are all set. Sorry to disappoint those of you who may have been waiting for a Thanksgiving invite. The annual kick-ass Thanksgiving hoopla will not be happening this year, as we are headed to New York to see family. The Bug and I will be spending two weeks with Nana at Christmas time, which will be wonderful, since Nana hasn't seen her since she was two weeks old. I think all that family time will be really good for me too, and after I return, it's the new year. I plan to get serious about finding freelance work, among other things.
That's about all the news that's fit to print at the moment.
Posted by mwashburn at November 2, 2005 10:58 AMPosted to Depression | mommyhood
Comments
ooh definitely don't just stop taking it--it'll confuse the brain even more. one thing to be aware of on SRIs, they basically roll off the highs and lows (think of it like sound levels on a song, it gets a bit muffled).
Posted by: patita at November 2, 2005 02:47 PM
I'm glad that you're doing a little better. Hope you have safe travels for Thanksgiving! We're staying here this year and then going to my family's for Christmas [in Columbus, IN]. I can't WAIT for our little one's first Thanksgiving and Christmas! :)
Posted by: Lisanne at November 9, 2005 02:37 PM